When Then and Now Mesh

Today I went out with my cousins then I had dinner with my friends from school and my other friend who now lives in Hawaii but came down here for a visit. It felt very surreal and strange for me. Especially because the last time we all had such time together was back in first year. I'm now in my fourth year, senior year, the year I graduate. It's like the times then and now start to merge and I feel like I'm being time warped. I can't fully process which time frame I'm in and it's all just so strange.
Another matter concerning the mesh of the past and the present was when I was going through my old videos yesterday. Before I fell into the whole One Direction family business. My fandom before and my fandom now both mean so much but I just feel like they're both different parts of me and when they collide, I get confused. One can not look left and right at both times after all.
Time and memories are strange. When past and present collide with each other I wonder what that is called? It's beyond reminiscing or feeling nostalgic. I literally feel like I'm living two lives. Maybe it's just me or maybe there's some philosophical explanation to it. I'd rather not dwell on it too much though.

we took a similar photo back when we were freshmen and this was taken tonight :)

Distress and Out

Just sitting here, thinking what to write about. I've never been good at blogs, even journals. My journals end up being practically the journal of the band I'm currently into. Either that or rants about my family. And it's not only here do I experience such things, even with my Philosophy class. Our teacher asked us to have a journal and write stuff that we think about, things that we ponder on. We should have 8 entries by the end of the quarter. It's already mid-quarter and I still have no entries. What should I ponder on? Why Harry is so darn charming? I ponder on that a lot. I don't understand him. Anyway, out of that.
D I S T R E S S A N D O U T
Weekends are great then I have to go back to school. My friends annoy me a lot. Well you know, the petty things. How they're always so indecisive or so slow. So then sometimes I just go with my own flow. But I still love them to bits. I'm fickle minded, yeah.
There's also the matter of college. Goodness. College. Distress, distress.
Twitter and all that drama going on that just makes a gigantic mess. Distress. (still can't get off it though)
Out?
The simple, happy moments of life. Being around the people you love being with. The boys succeeding. So as you see my every day is a literal up and down ride. Wow.
Anyway, this is what I wore last Sunday. Pretty, yeah? I love the outfit :)

Hi there

so introductions come first

Call me Arielle. This is where I will write random stuff about myself when I feel like it and post pictures that I took. This blog is not meant for the people who know me in real life (most especially the people I go to school with) to see. So I hope no one finds it or knows this is me. 

First things, first. I'm in love with One Direction whoopdidoo. It's crazy actually but I'll try to keep the bulk of the fangirling on twitter. 

bye.